shoulda, coulda, wouldawhen i met you, i should've stayed callous.shoulda, coulda, woulda by inkstaineddove
i should've remained distant,
friendly yet too far to touch.
(out of orbit or not in your solar system?
only what ifs can decide which would
have saved us)
i could've ignored you.
i'm good at that you see.
i could've been firm in my mind about
trying you on for a ride.
(i would've done, but goddamit
you were so nice,
so generous and uplifting.
you stroked my ego and
reminded me that devotion
was possible for me to recieve)
at the breaking point, i should've phrased things
i should've considered you more human than
but your looks and actions were so co-dependent
that i could't help but cut the chord.
i could've had better timing.
i could've picked the week that we weren't
going to be trapped together for.
i could've made the separation easier.
(i would've left sooner if
i would've been smarter.
you would've been better
and i would've been less guilty)
we're reconnecting, so i should've been
clean up on isle 15don't cry over spilled milkclean up on isle 15 by inkstaineddove
but tell me, how am i not -
how am i supposed to suppress
the words in my head,
the pounding in my chest,
that reminds me once again i
how am i supposed
to hold everything back,
fight back the tears,
because everything -
and that is anything these days
ever since the doctors forced me away
and the pills were here to stay -
reminds me how much i screwed up.
or should i say everything
reminds me of how much i'm a
screw up, with eyes that water at
the smallest inconvenience and a
mind that's as sick as me and whispers,
just loud enough to echo through my skull,
maybe things would be better without you.
and yes, i know.
i know, i know, i know
that this "pity-party" must stop.
that i just simply have to snap out of this
or if im just pretending to be happy
it'll all get better.
but when you have voices that
that love to hug you tight,
glaze your eyes, cut out your tongue,
icarus would have preferred a death like thisi want to feelicarus would have preferred a death like this by inkstaineddove
replayed over and over
like the broken records of old.
the crushed grass
being blown by the
sea-salt tainted wind.
i want to feel
only lights are provided by stars
(and the light of middle aged man
and woman's dimly lit bedroom.
it is nine p.m. on a friday
it is their bedtime)
less and less come out
while the stakes of this game,
increases with every whimpered breath.
i want to feel
the hits sting numb skin.
they resonate loud through suburbia.
they leave no marks except for shame.
gentle whispers coach the night.
less, more, less, more, stop, mm.
hair in knots and blue jeans dying green.
degrading. degrading in every fashion.
within ten minutes, the shop is closed.
silence returns and if you squint your eyes,
cock your head to the side,
you can almost feel at ease.
i've felt too much
Parallel Universes and We'd be Married"In another life, I believe we might've been in love."Parallel Universes and We'd be Married by inkstaineddove
They spin around together, keeping in time with the music and the waves of people around them.
He looks at her and his uncertainty is clear across his face. He can't decide whether she is trying to make a joke or crazy.
The look on her face is in all seriousness. He decides once again that she is crazy.
"You believe in nothing."
"I believe in that."
They continue to dance in silence. She rests her head on his shoulder. He rests his hands on her ass.
"We were never supposed to wind up like this."
His voice is barely a whisper and yet she can hear him. She reflects on how they were when they were younger.
How they hated each other until he disappeared. How she hates him, still, now that he's reappeared.
"I don't think we ever will."
They're now meeting each other's eyes. Honest words are finally being spoken without the movement of lips.
Understanding. It's come so late and yet all too soon.
The song end
glass slippers have cracksI dream of one last danceglass slippers have cracks by inkstaineddove
with you, hand around my waist.
How unfortunate for me
that dreams only exist in Disney,
boy, with the face of Prince Charming
and the heart of Jafar.
down in wonderlandyou were king.down in wonderland by inkstaineddove
a god amongst men,
ruling with easy smiles,
and gentle authority.
we were weak.
spineless creatures, mortals.
bending to every whim,
of those far greater.
the world was viewed from
rose-colored lenses whenever
you decided to grace us
with your humble
how we would cheer.
we would bow,
kiss the dirt at your boot.
lips touching dust always
a l w a y s
left a bitter taste.
we were revolutionaries.
your reign was tight.
you took what women you pleased,
killed the men that were threats.
if it wasn't yours
how you longed for it.
(only if it was hand delivered
on a gold platter
inscribed with the finest jewels)
we grew weary.
we were overworked,
the lens began to slip off.
everything was seen in green.
green for disease,
we were peasants,
we were promised whats was yours
you never expected it.
the swish of a cloak,
the slip of a sword,
|Through the looking glass and down the rabbit hole|
|A little bit angry, a little bit scared|
from florida with loveyou are an unstable constant in my lifein
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down in wonderlandyou were king.
playing pretend shaped us to thisI am smoke filled lungsin
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icarus would have preferred a death like thisi want to feelin
Seven Step Recoveryi.You were my once upon-a-time. You were my prince. A stupid prince, albeit a pretty one. You were supposed to whisk me away off to the fantastical land of New Jersey as soon as we were legal.
there is no difference between plastic and nylonThis is another poem,
cicadas and sun isn't the southi remember
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from florida with loveyou are an unstable constant in my life
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