in the eye of a hurricane

there's a storm inside me.
it thunders and crackles in
my belly,
its clouds smash against
my ribcage. 

i think of you and
it clears away. the sun,
it begins to shine beneath my
chest and you can hear the birds cry.
butterflies create mini twisters that
make my heart flutter. 

i think of you and
a knot grows into my belly,
filling up every space,
making me want to puke. 
i'm gagging, but the knot
won't come out thanks to the
marbles i swallowed for breakfast.
i cannot breathe i cannot think,
i can only tremble.

i think of both of you and
the storm turns into a hurricane.
category 5 winds swirl inside
and i'm panicking - 
where's the nearest evacuation route?
where is my safety my comfort?

calm and calamity, 
i can no longer tell them apart,
become one while i 
fall apart